I have to admit that I enjoy the way things are now. It feels pretty ordinary and that's great.
But I guess things will become harder as we go into winter. It tends to rain a lot here and of course winter walks hand in hand with colds and flu and lots of other bugs, so we will be a bit limited in things we would actually be able to do with Bianca and places we would be able to go to, as we do have to try and limit her exposure to people displaying obvious signs of illness.
That's where it becomes tricky meeting people or inviting people over or going to visit people - it always has to come with a "as long as there are no signs of illness" and more often than not unfortunately somebody has a runny nose or a cough and the visit has to be postponed. As I said before no matter which way you look at it it is always isolated - either we take many more risks, Bianca becomes ill and has to be isolated or we isolate her more to prevent her becoming ill.
Sometimes I wonder what things will look like when we are all done with treatment - will I have become this totally neurotic and overprotective mother or will I be able to relax and not care too much if Bianca gets a runny nose or a bruise or two (and the same for Caitlyn)? For over 2 years we would have been totally zoned in and focused on things like signs of illness, the possibility of picking up bugs, that swimming pools need to be avoided and so on, so it's like adopting a whole new lifestyle. But that's still many months away before we reach the end of treatment and for now, we'll just "protect" ourselves within the boundaries that this illness has set for us. At least it does feel pro-active, that we are actively doing something and at least it does feel safe, because as long as we actively treat the cancer, Bianca has a good chance to recover fully!
Last night Terence did a magic trick with a coin. One of those where he puts it in his hand, asks Bianca to blow and then it disappeared just for him to find it behind her ear or her head or under her arm or wherever. She was totally fascinated and asked him to do it over and over and over again. I love this age!
Terence started work on Monday and so far so good. The bus ride does take a bit longer than his train ride used to take, but it is easy enough so no complaints there.
And other than that we are still very much unpacking boxes.