2008-11-26

Oh how I hate it!

Right now Bianca is sobbing, uncontrollably sobbing. No particular reason, everything is making her sad, incredibly sad.

I hate what the steroids are doing to Bianca. I hate how it constantly gives her cravings, makes her ask for something and then saying she is not hungry, I hate how it makes her not sleep well and then waking up early and then making her feel tired during the day. I hate how it makes her sad, how it makes her grumpy and emotional and clingy. I hate how there is nothing we can do, except sit and wait it out.

I hate steroids and this week seems particularly challenging and tough.

I'm hoping for a better day tomorrow!

6 comments:

Suzanne said...

Oh my friend, I feel for you. I am sending hugs your way.

Anonymous said...

Hi Lea, yes we know exactly what you are going through, as our happy, energetic, fun loving 8yr old transforms into a different soul the week she is on steroids too. We are all in the same boat, those of us in this for the long haul. We still have approx. 16 months left of Briar's treatment, so you will be celebrating being off steroids well before us. At least we all get nearly 3 good weeks each month huh! Cheers, Rochelle Miller.

sharonvw said...

I'm so sorry you're all having such an awful time, especially little Bianca. I know I say it all the time, but its just so unfair!
(((Hugs)))

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry to hear that Bianca is having such a hard time on the steroids. They are so horrible and I so can't wait till they are a very distant memory.
I hope that things improve soon for you all.
Take care,
Bridget

Bridget said...

Lea, all strength to you. I can't do anything to help except let you know I am thinking of you all.
Hang in there, girl!
Bridget Kenny

Anonymous said...

I hope Bianca had a beeter day yesterday and it is nearly over for this month. Laura no longer takes steriods but I remember it well. Hang in there...we are waiting to read you are happy again Bianca xx
Hannah

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