Instead, we are "celebrating" Bianca's last day of treatment in hospital, Ward 25B isolation room 5, she has a high temperature (was 39.5 when she we arrived and a little while after that 38.3), she was lethargic (but since perked up a bit), very little appetite, she is completely neutropenic (her white cell count is 0.34 and neutrophils too low to measure). She is getting IV antibiotics until blood cultures come back and we know what sort of a bug we are dealing with. And most disappointingly of all, I missed her swallowing her very last chemo tablet because she is not getting chemo with such low levels and we understand they don't make up doses. Terence gave her her tablet last night, I didn't watch her swallow it, we didn't take a photo or a video clip. I'm not complaining that the chemo is done, and I did want to keep things fairly low key, but I wanted that last chemo tablet to be recognised, to be witnessed, to be final. There will be no special present tomorrow morning and we won't be going out for supper (unless if you count the Subway we might buy for supper at the hospital).
It seems all so ironic. We started this journey with Bianca feeling miserable, admitted to hospital and neutropenic, hooked up to IV, in isolation and here we are at the end of our chemo treatment and it is just the same as way back in June 2007. Except that this time round we are not so clueless as we were back then, we've learned a thing or two since then.
One good thing though is that our celebration is such that we can do it when Bianca is discharged. It is just disappointing that it didn't go completely as planned. I hope Bianca will be out in time for the 18th, otherwise that too will have to be postponed.
Then just before I close this - thank you so much to Lynn, Norwin and Jarrod for a very special parcel that arrived for Bianca today. She was so surprised and so happy and you really made her day. Thank you!