It also doesn't feel scary at the moment, to not have the "safety net" of the treatment. Okay fair enough Bianca hasn't had any funny looking bruises just yet that would make me wonder "hmmm is that only a bruise or does it mean something different?" Maybe because we've had to adjust on short notice so often since Bianca was diagnosed, it made the transition into the "after chemo" part of our journey a bit simpler. Also, I guess if Bianca went straight from intensive therapy to being done instead of the way it was on maintenance where despite being on chemo she was at home for most of the time, she even managed school, perhaps because of being on maintenance the end of treatment felt less dramatic and not quite as different to before.
Perhaps the scary part hasn't come yet because throughout Bianca's treatment we've had to adopt a "you can't choose what happens in life, but you can choose how you handle it" kind of attitude. We've never allowed the "what ifs" to take hold of us and invade our minds. But perhaps the scary part will still come. Perhaps once we start finishing off some of these other normal medicines. Who knows?
It is just so different to how I imagined it would be. But I'm super-glad though that we reached this part of our journey!