Thinking of you tonight!

It is heartbreaking when one moment everything seems just fine and then the next your world comes crumbling down when you get a diagnosis of cancer. It is heartbreaking, shocking, devastating, sad and totally unexpected. And for once you wish you were not picked for the team. I remember how it was with us, how unreal it felt, how you just want things to go back to how it was. I remember waking up the day after we got Bianca's diagnosis thinking "oh what a horrible dream... oh wait, it wasn't a dream!"

So my heart goes out to all the families that have recently received their diagnosis. I wish nobody else would have to get the news ever again, but sadly many more families will walk this road too.

What helped us cope was the decision just to focus on "now", I figured if I could just take one more step, just one more day then before we knew it we would look back. And fair enough we don't know where our road will lead, but we wanted to make time to "live life" too. I recently read a book called Hannah's Gift and something that stood out so completely was when the doctor said "make the best decisions with the information you have at the time". You can't do much more than that!

We gained so much strength through Bianca's courage, her ability to smile and to make the most of every day:

Bianca's story
Dedicated to Bianca

So if you are sitting there today in total disbelieve, shock and your heart broken into a million pieces - know that you are not alone, know that things can become more manageable, know that it is okay to cry, but also okay to smile!

Remember, you can't choose what happens in your life, but you can choose how you handle it!!!

1 comment:

Annie - Steven's mom said...

This is beautiful. Thanks